Five Things That Bother People With Lupus
Having a positive attitude can be a beautiful thing. But when you suffer with a chronic, often debilitating, disease that few people understand (or even know what it is) the odds are stacked against you when it comes to maintaining positivity.
The effects lupus has on the body can be anything from mild to devastating — a nuisance you must endure to a life-threatening attack. Having lupus can feel like a rollercoaster ride where you just don’t know how fast and extreme that next drop will be. When you survive the big drop you feel victorious, but when you are climbing slowly towards a freefall, well, that confidence is gone.
That fear and frustration can lead to changes in your mood, how much you can tolerate (without losing your cool) and in general how you perceive things in your life. Challenges, work, weather, and the behavior of others can get the better of you when you are in constant pain, horribly fatigued, and battling to survive another day.
There are several things that seem to bother me more when I am in the midst of a flare. Everything from people’s lack of understanding to everyday challenges. I am a part of several lupus support groups and I have learned it is fairly common for someone with lupus to feel like their life, and everyone in it, is slowly pushing them to the limits.
1. Weather Extremes When We Have to Be Outside
I am a mom of four and as hard as I try to avoid extreme cold or hot temperatures, as well as excessive direct sunlight, there are times I have to endure it.
My boys play soccer in fall and baseball in the spring. Though I feel that I must be there to support them, it is usually something I feel I go into “survival mode” be able to endure.
Typically, I force myself to go and then feel irritated that everyone else at the field is only mildly annoyed by the weather, while it is almost unbearable for me. As I hide under trees from the sun or sit hugging myself and going numb from the painful cold, I see other parents laughing and enjoying the moment.
I am jealous. I admit it and it is not the right way to feel, but it happens.
2. When Others Compare Their Life to Ours
I have a friend who constantly boasts about how hard she is working out, how driven she is to have a beach body, and how hard she works at her job — though she has a less than average work week compared to most. Her Facebook statuses are always about how amazing life always is for her.
I get it. Your life is awesome, your health is amazing, and you have never struggled financially, but instead have traveled the world. Honestly, the way she talks it would appear that she never has a bad day and is convinced she will be rich and continue to travel, healthy and happy forever.
In the midst of a flare, this is a big button pusher for me. She has said her life is perfect because she is always happy (she has gone as far as to say there is no reason ever to be unhappy) and mine life is filled with challenges and lupus because we each get what we deserve.
It has not occurred to her that she is happy because she has not yet been really challenged. The comparison makes me resentful and yes, angry. Walk a mile in my shoes and see how happy you always feel.